Letter

Louie,

I remember the first day we hung out. It was our lunch break at 44, I went with you, Mark and Trent to your house for lunch. You showed me your mini diploma, it was so adorable! Just like you :) After that day we started to become closer. Hanging out more and talking on the phone. I remember I had the second shift, no one i knew was working and you came in to keep me company. We stayed in the game room that whole time talking our brains out. After work we went to your baseball game. I watched you the whole time, although I was with Mark and Farley. You were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Although I had a boyfriend and you were hooking up with someone, I always found myself wanting to be closer to you. I remember the last week of work I had to leave early for my vacation to colorado. I would have rather stayed here with you. What killed me the most was that the day I came home- you were leaving for college. I remember after you got settled in you called me and we spoke for an hour :) I have always felt so comfortable around you. I was glad after school had started for you, still you would come home on weekends to visit. I had the chance to hang out with you again, like how it was in the summer. I really did feel like I was your come home girlfriend. It didn't make me sad to think that. It was the closest thing I had to feeling like your girlfriend and I accepted that feeling into my heart. I felt so amazed when you brought Josh and Salty home to meet me, I got to meet some of your college friends. They were cool, Josh will always be my favorite ;) For some reason I would always feel like we tried to get each other jealous on purpose. i think it worked. For all your visits i dredded one thing. when it came time to say goodbye. i could never forget the night of my birthday. we were texting more than normally. i was going crazy on the phone with Jett and Sam. i made up my mind, i was going to tell you how I felt about you. I told you i was scared, I liked you but didn't want to ruin our friendship. I tried to put it as simple as possible because I didnt think I had a chance. I didn't think you liked me at all. i thought i ruined my relationship with one of my very close friends. but to my suprise you felt the same. you liked me too but didn't want to say anything because you didnt think i felt the same and would rather have me as a friend then as nothing at all. i told you that i felt like your come home girlfriend. you amazing wordds were that you wanted me to be your real girlfriend. we felt like complete idiots. we should have had this conversation months ago! i called you up and you told me you wanted to be with me. i am not going to lie i had the biggest smile on my face. my only worry was not that it would be long distant because i trusted you, i had faith in you. But because i didnt want you to give up your college experience. However, you wanted to try out our relationship and i wasn't going to stop you, it is exactly what i wanted. I haven't stoped loveing every minute of it. We have been together for a month already. i don't know where the time went. I have never been so happy in my life. i knew i would love, but never dreamed it was going to be like this. i have one single theory on relationships. you have to get your heart broken several times before you find a good guy. all the heart aches, pain and suffering i have been through was worth it. i would do anything for you. You are my real life prince charming. New Years was the best day ever Babe. Bringing me to see Ashley had to be the best gift you have ever given me. It might not seem like a big deal to you, it was just driving me to a friends house. I guess this is what they mean by "the little things count". I haven't seen ashley in four months. Seeing her face, talking to her in person, hugging and kissing her. having her and the family meet my absolutely amazing boyfriend meant the world to me! the best part was fter we came home , i tried all my might to hold them in but the tears wouldnt stay. i was laying on you hopeing you didnt feel me crying. when you noticed and asked- begged for me to tel you why i was upset it was hard to answer. i wasn;t sure myself. It was because I was mad at Ashley. Mad she had tried to kill herself, leaving me alone. Mad that when i need her most she wasn't here. Mad that i couldn't see her more. And because i missed her terribly. You would have taken me back, but i didnt think i could say goodbye to her again. then was when it happend. when you confessed the one thing the both of us will never forget. You never felt like this before, you would do anything for me, I mean everything to you, I am your world, that you have fallen for me. Your in love with me. Those words have never sounded so sweet. They sang in my ears. My heart fluttered rapidly. I touched your cheek with my hand and said "I am so in love with you". You could hear the honesty in my voice. You spoke those sweet words, the ones i will never forget. "Susan, I love you" Since that day, you have been constantly reminding me that you love me. That is all that I could wish for. You are perfect for me. As if you have just dropped clear out of the sky. We act completely retarded together, and I love it! Weither we are driving in the car singing, watching disney movies, eatting, sleeping, blowling, at the batting cages, even sitting there and picking each others noses! :) I can still be myself around you. I have completely embarassed myself by snoring in front of you, theres not much embarassing things left that i could do. I know it seems crazy that I think about my future with you. It seems like i have known you for years now. I try to imagine where i am going to be in the next couple of years. I see me in your arms. I want to be with you for a long time. years and years sweetie. Don't be scared, please. I want you to be here with me. Never leave me. I want you here forever. I never want our fairy tale to end. You mean the world to me. I would do anything for you. I would give you my kidney. I want us to be happy like this always. Happy, with the life we make for ourselves. I have never wanted something so badly in my life. I am crazy in love with you, baby. Please, don't ever break my heart. I give you the key to it. Put it in your mouth and swallow it. So you can be the only one able to hold the key. I love you forever and always. I will never stop.